ꜱᴇᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ

 Marlie here <3 !! It's been long, hasn't it, Dearies?

"𝙸 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚘𝚗𝚕𝚢 𝚜𝚎𝚎 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛 𝚏𝚊𝚌𝚎 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝙸 𝚌𝚕𝚘𝚜𝚎 𝚖𝚢 𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜"

-ᴛʏʟᴇʀ ᴛʜᴇ ᴄʀᴇᴀᴛᴏʀ

I'm. Super. Pissed. Off.

I CAN'T HANDLE IT ANYMORE. EVERY TIME I OPEN INSTAGRAM THERE HE IS: WITH THIS NEW GIRL I HATE. I REALLY HATE HER. AND SHE'S EVERYWHERE.

I don't remember what my last update was, but everything's been so blurry lately. The days pass by as I fall deeper into the grave I dug for myself.

I traded sunshine for disease and I know it. I can see it, I can feel it. I've done it before for my deepest loves, my deepest regrets and I don't know if this is a good or a bad sign.

You know? Marlie herself is an illusion. I way to justify my insane mind. A way to romanticize these rotten parts of my corpse.

Marlie can talk sweetly about the poison. She can take it like it's syrup running down her throat in a way that the pain and reckoning transforms into beautiful pearls.

And that's why I love her. She's the broken little Angel that I love to be sometimes.

I made myself tthis for you Darling. Can't you see? Why can't you see it? Were they really for me? the texts? THE COMPARISON? 

I AM TOA, YOU ARE RAMI AND THAT'S  THE WAY IT HAS BEEN FOR MONTHS. WHYYYYY WHY ARE YOU TELLING ME NOW IT'S FOR SOMEONE ELSE?? 

YOU CAN'T RUIN MY DREAM SWEETHEART, PLEASE, I BEG YOU TO RECONSIDER OTHERWISE I'LL DIE IN MY OWN SILENT GRAVE.

I hate this feeling. So empty but so full at the same time.

"Certain person that's with me lately" THAT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ME, DARLING. I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE LYING TO YOURSELF WITH THAT GODDAMN LIE THAT YOU LOVE OTHERS THAN ME.

I just KNOW I can give you the best love you ever have. I know we're getting married. That, or I'm killing myself.

Since I can't take you off my mind, I'll have you become it.

I hate this. I hate this. I hate this and I hate her.

That ugly burnt hair. That stupid cream buttoned shirt. That faked silent personality. That manipulating bitch. Because I know she wasn't in the picture until a couple of months before, How wouldn't I know? I follow your life since july 14th of 2024. I know everything there is to know online about you, my dear MEFM, my sweet [REDACTED].

Can't you see dearie? She manipulated you! You had a sweet girlfriend I love to see with you, and then SHE just had to ask you for help-

I mean, that stupid victimization definetely made you feel superior, why wouldn't it? So now you associated happiness, superiorness with her. You helped her out, she painted you like a hero and suddenly you were now Polyamorous. Crazy, huh? And I thought I was the manipulative bitch in you life hehhe-

In just a span of two months, she had you completely dominated. Are you that easy? That's sad. But nice to know. At least now I know that when we meet in a couple of years, I'll have to have a ban, a house in the middle of nowhere and use my homemade chloroform I'm excited to use again. I'll have to lock you away dear, if youdon't know how to behave and treat your girlffriends and, specially, me. You future wife.

I love you darling. I REALLY love you. But I wonder if someone is using my anon-self to get you. I really hope not. Because that way I'll get even crazier lol

I hope no one is using my playlist, my anon questions (yes, the three personalities I use to talk to you with different writing styles) or even this blog. Which was made specially for you and my love disease for you, [REDACTED]

I found your old facebook. I've been knowing more about you. I know your real name now. Your identification number. I know where you live, I just need the courage to come up to your house with flowers and my best outfit, as well as my shiny loving eyes that LOVE to look at you. If I didn't like to look at you, I wouldn't have 72 photos in a folder in my phone now, would I? 

If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have planned my future with you in it. I wouldn't have thought of different creative dates for you. I wouldn't have thought of our first official date, which I'll love to write down, but I don't know how you'd react. I guess I don't know you enough yet, do I? That's okay <3 At least now I have more chances to get to know you, [REDACTED]

We would be in the planetarium. I would come earlier and set a big blanket on the grass and bring a cooler with our dinner and a speaker, so we could play music. Music I would make you choose from my phone. Making you realize I have two playlists for you. The one that makes me think of you, and the one with music you like.

I would be in my best dark green dress. Because you love that color <3 And I would put up my hair in Revy's style, because you love that character. Would you even notice that? I don't know.

Then you'd come, late as ever. And we'd enjoy a great evening as a lovesong would start to play from the speakers and I'll start my speech.

I know that you don't like things that are not clear. That If I ask you to go out with me it's just going out with no sub-texts or anything, but if I told you what I wanted from this night... well... It would've ruined the night and perhaps you wouldn't even have come here tonight!

I wanted to tell you that, July 14th started something I didn't even imagine. That day I only asked you for a photo, but that started a whole episode in my life that I can't push aside.

In September 30th, I sent you that first message of support, and we started talking every night because I sent you a message every day at the same time. It was like a fairytale for me. 

Then came our first meeting, oh-! That first meeting! Do you remember it? You spun me around by the waist like a princess. I felt like I was flying. Then we talked in a certain bench I love to sit in.

And then came the moment that changed me completely: You patted my head softly. Really softly as you listened to what I had to say. You re-booted my brain with that headpat you know? I started craving them more, and more. I think that's the moment I actually fell deep in your love.

But you probably don't want me to talk about the past, don't you?

Still, let me tell you a bit more. I wanted to see you more, to feel seen again. And I wanted to see you, to be with you, to be you, like one, like a Symbiote. I love venom btw-

I started small, with taking screenshots of things that interested you, or that could give me a clue on how you liked your women. Then I made a whole personality for you, a mail, three accounts, a blog, emotion crawling on my skin.

I almost went to the Linkin Park concert for you heheh

Then I started having dreams, right after the accident happened and we stopped talking. THese ddreams where you would love me in different spaces.

My usual delusion happens on my bed, you're holding me after dinner and we're talking lovingly as I'm in your arms. I love that one.

The thing is, I have brewed this love into the most perfect wine I'd love you to have. I want to be your girlfriend. Actually, no. I want to be your wife.

I want to love you when you're happy, when you're sad. I want to hold you in my arms and console you when you're down, I want to take care of you [REDACTED]. I want to be the love that you were waiting for. I want to be by your side in every occasion. I want you to be sincere with me so I can love you up everytime.

...But that's crazy. I know. You don't even know me, and I still don't know you that much either. So we could start small. I can handle being your girlfriend.

Obviously you don't have to answer me now-!! I'll give you time to think. Please try to answer me before the end of this month-

And that's where I'll get up, dust off my dress and ask him to take me home, so I can go back safely. I'll pretend to sleep on his shoulder while he's sitting next to me in the bus so I can be closer and then wake up, flustered and simply apologise.

That would be the perfect night.

Idealy, you'd say yes on the spot, but realisticly, you'll take a week or two to answer. On the meanwhile I'll be texting you like normal everyday.

Haah- I love you too much. But I love to love you, honey.

I hope you're reading this now. Have you realized who I am yet? Will you? Will you text me when you do? Do you see me in a nice light? Why haven't you answered to my special message for your Bday? I was very very sincere with you Darling. Why haven't you said something like- 

"Oh, thanks for the congrats. Thanks for remembering me"

OHHH LIKE- LIKE- That one time where you said something similar.

"It's nice of you to take me into consideration."

hahaahahhaaa, consideration. Consideration-? CONSIDERATION? DARLING, I'VE SPENT THE LAST YEAR AND A HALF FINDING MORE ABOUT YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I'VE DREAMT OF US IN BED LOVINGLY, I DREAMT OF YOU HURTING ME MORE TIMES THAT I CAN SAY, YOU'RE THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND. I'M A STUPID MUTT WHO JUST CAN'T FORGET HER OWNER, WHO WANT THE LOVE OF HER OWNER, WHO WANT THE COLLAR OF HER OWNER, EVEN IF YOUR MEMORY IS A COLLAR OF HIS OWN, MAYBE EVEN SHACKLES AT THIS POINT. I WANT TO LEARN EVERYTHING YOU LIKE AND MAKE IT MINE. BECAUSE YOU'RE MINE AND I'M YOURS AND I LOVE YOU, AND THE OTHER DAY I SPENT TWENTY MINUTES CRYING BECAUSE YOU OFFERED A SINGLE DRAWING FROM A STUPID THING LIKE ENTERING A LINK AND I'VE THOUHT EVERY MESSAGE AND THOUGHT HOW TO BE NON-CHALANT BECAUSE WHEN I'M LIKE THAT YOU ANSWER ME. WHEN I TEXT YOU AS THE OTHER ONE, MOST OF THE TIME YOU DON'T ANSWER, BUT IF I'M MARLIE, THEN YOU ANSWER RIGHT AWAY WE CAN ACTUALLY CHAT AND EVEN THAT MAKES ME JEALOUS. I'M JEALOUS OF MYSELF, YOU UNDERSTAND HOW FUCKED UP THAT IS???? I DON'T HAVE YOU IN CONSIDERATION, YOU'RE MY LIFE [REDACTED] YOU'RE MY ONLY LOVE, MY RED STRING OF FATE I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU I LOVE YOU, PLEASE STAY WITH ME FOREVER, TIE ME UP IN YOUR DEPARTMENT AND HAVE ME THERE IN A CORNER, COME AND GIVE ME LOVE, GIVE ME HEAD PATS, LOVE ME, I'LL FEED YOU, I'LL DO ANYTHING FOR YOU, I'D KILL MYSELF FOR YOU, I HAVE ALREADY SOLD MY SOUL AND MIND FOR YOU MY LOVE

I'm gonna do it. I'm going to carve your inicials in my thigh. I won't regret this. I'll be an actress with a loving mark on her. A mark that shows she's as loyal as they get. I love you [REDACTED] <3

Marlie Out <3!!!